Erez Eğilmez, have you ever thought that life is undecided for you and can go on without you.
That if I go, I have nowhere to go. I made the prosperous years livable on the outside, but how short the days and nights were for me. I was not one of those people who took the journey to eternity above the clouds as a goal.
Yes, while I was wandering the world above the clouds, only I saw my loneliness in a black mirror, turning my face towards me.
However, I always wanted to go. I have no place left to go. When I look at you and the world with my gains, not with what I lost, I thought that the word goodbye was not true, but it would be more beautiful. Actually, I thought so from the beginning. I know that even though I came to you as entertainment at first, my love was very different and still different. I understand my love for people only with the crumbs in my heart. Actually, I am angry at you for not showing up without fear, even though you knew me all this time. If you had appeared, Erez Eğilmez would have said, "We succeeded, not by breaking the end like a piece of ice, but by walking forward, but by walking together." I've thought over and over that if I go, a lot of people will be happy because even the ones I trust the most have stabbed me in the back.
I won't have scars on my body because the scars are a red stream that will bleed forever in my heart, this stream paints the whole world red and if I'm gone how will you understand me and how will you be without me. I was thinking, how would you perceive that you have an extra-self life without me?
I get inspired by music, I continue on my way, this time I thought, what use is a desolate world, a life without people and a grave without a shroud? If I leave, who will remain of this world? Memories and history remember the good, unfortunately the bad ones are included in the pages of history with what they did. I am very happy to be here in the depths of my heart, don't say you know me, look deeply into my eyes to get to know me, eyes don't lie.
You all came together and thought, how can I be destroyed and how to enjoy the victory without me at the end of this destruction.
The world stopped trying to destroy me.
Because I loved and always gave everyone except my soul so that they would be happy. In the past years, I took off my watch and gave it to the person who was standing next to me and chatting with me in a far country. When you asked why, I said it's just an hour later, you'll remember me.
Who remembers or forgets me at this time, I don't know. I will not forget the Erez Eğilmez I know.
Do you know what is the hardest? The most difficult thing is for a person to collect the broken pieces by himself without outside help.
Then why did you hurt me so much that you would understand my value instead of protecting me?
It doesn't matter, it's not the end of the world, but if I go, I go only for myself.
If I stay, I guess I did, I stayed for myself, not for anyone else. I don't leave without thanking what has been done because I am one of those who know how to say thank you. Thank you so that the person in front of me can say you are welcome. Thank you. I guess you don't understand me. Actually, I thanked everyone, including people in my book, but I guess there is one person I didn't thank until this age, I'm sorry it's late. I thank you, my real father, Atıf Eğilmez. This is my son Erez Eğilmez. Thank you, you're gone, but I'm still here, this world is too heavy, make sure it's too heavy to lift, but I thank you. Thank you Dad. It's been so many days that I didn't count the stars that I didn't look at the moon.
If I'm still here, I'm here to see the wind dance with the birds again and swim with the fish in the seas again.
I inflicted the greatest pain on Erez Eğilmez. I know how to say thank you, but I also know how to apologize.
I'm sorry, Erez Eğilmez. It doesn't matter, I even forgive you because you're still here.
Look at the light, it is the greatest treasure that will always bring you to the light. Follow the light because the light never leaves you in the dark, but remember that if you dry up the source of the light, the light will leave you. Then you will be in the dark forever.
It is very difficult to keep people in empty words just as they do not hold ink on wet paper.
I see that wet papers and empty words have been flying in the air half my life.
Now, if these flying pieces remain, I hope that this cycle will bring peace to my remaining years in a passionate time period.
At least don't get my hopes up.
Make sure to smile at Erez Eğilmez, whom you have looked at from afar until now, in his remaining life.
My wealth is my heart, my wealth is the immovable light of my soul, which will keep me in me even if I am only one person.
I do not hold together those who understand and those who do not. I'm just showing them together so they'll think so.
When it's time to go, of course I will, teach people the meaning of love, the concept of love and the beauty of life.
Since nothing will be the same, then the meaning of love is the concept of love and the beauty of life will be even more beautiful than before.
This is my testament before I go to those who rule the world for humanity.
The meaning of love, the concept of love and the beauty of life, may the beauty of life always be with you Sending my love Erez EĞİMLEZ

Erez Eğilmez

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